As a parent I'm often overwhelmed by all that is at stake. I, like most parents I know, want nothing more than to give my kids the very best that I can of myself. If I were to count it up, most of my conversations with others throughout the day are about my kids. I spend time reading, talking to friends and praying just trying to figure it all out!
We spend our resources trying to provide for them: new bikes, playpens, clothes, musical instruments, sporting equipment and the list goes on. We give so much to our kids. I'm left wondering this: when that dreadful day comes and they drive away, what will remain? What will they take with them (I have all girls so I'm sure that there will be plenty!) from their growing up years in our home?
As my mind wanders to that day down the road, I'm left hoping that they will remember the times that I was able to "be" with them and not necessarily all of the times I was "doing" for them. Yes, there is much to be done each day. Laundry to be done, careers to develop, meals to make, and messes to clean up....all demand much of my time. When it comes down to it though, I know these things will not be what they take from my home. I want them to remember that I was able to be silly with them, that I laid on their beds at night and talked with the lights out, that I could understand when one of their friends betrayed them. I want them to remember that I wasn't perfect but that I discover the grace God so freely gives on a daily basis and that I passed that grace along to them.
In a society that strives for perfection, I find that I'll never measure up. So, instead of perfection I'll strive to be a good enough parent! Seems like a pretty crazy goal, doesn't it?! I know that I'll fall way short most days but what I want them to take with them is that I was able to be the parent that God has called me to be because I was able to rely upon Him and His strength.
When the tearful goodbyes are said and each of our three enter the next chapter of God's story for them, I want them to remember that I was able to BE because I'll never be able to DO enough. It's because of my dependance upon my Savior that I can rest assured that all He's called me to do is to BE. God gave me the kids I have because He is confident that I can BE better than anyone else with these three! I'll do all I can to measure up to what He's called me to BE!