While God allows me to experience great joy through all of the earthly things that He has blessed me with, He never promised that I would forever live with these blessings.
As I was thanking God for these great days and all that they included when suddenly I had a terrible thought...what if I lost it all? I don't know, maybe it's the scardy cat in me, or maybe it's because I've given two sermons on Job lately that had me thinking about how loosely I really do need to hold things.
While God allows me to experience great joy through all of the earthly things that He has blessed me with, He never promised that I would forever live with these blessings. So, it seems that there is a nagging fear that lives ever present in the back of my mind.
"Fear turns some parents into paranoid prison guards who monitor every minute, check the background of every friend. They stifle growth and communicate distrust. A family with no breathing room suffocates a child." ("Fearless" Max Lucado, 60)
In his book, "Fearless," Max Lucado goes on to explain how we, as parents, are to address these parenting fears that seem to overwhelm us at times. "We can't protect children from every threat in life, but we can take them to the Source of life. We can entrust our kids to Christ." (61)
In times when I'm afraid...I must pray for strength and hope. I must come to God knowing that I trust Him, no matter the outcome. I must trust Him with even my family.
I admit that when it comes right down to it, there is no way I'm really qualified to raise a child. There is no way that I won't have moments of fear about the "what ifs" of their future.
There have been three moments in time when I've publicly acknowledged that the ownership of my children isn't mine. Three moments in time when I, together with my husband, stood before a body of believers saying that these girls aren't really mine. They don't belong to me. I want to live as though I believe this.
I want to live as though I believe that God's plans for my kids are truly mine too. I keep giving them to Him. I want to live fearlessly.
How about you? Do you ever have moments of fear that something could happen to your children? What do you do so that you don't allow that fear to cripple you?